u know i really wanna try to be one of those dramaqueens who loves to update their status on facebook, twitter, wechat etc etc. like for now, i wanna tell the whole world that i am sooooo jealous of you, having ur fun with ur family. i want to tell my friends that i've been loving u all this time until now. i want to tell the whole world how u changed my life, how i am so happy having u in my life that i up till this moment im writing this, i cant forget u. i need u but i need my God too. and i am so torn apart between u and Him. i tried moving on- i've been writing for many times about how i still cant move on.. and yes, i dont care, i dont care.. it hurts but i'll survive soon. beh, thank you for loving me.. but its time for me to show myself that i really need to change me. i need to toughen up. just like you do.