and im not in the mood to pray. or anything related to it.
i have strayed to far. since God knows when.
i started drinking and i forgot when was it.
all i remembered, i start drinking with my friends (opkosla, xkn strangers) and i wasn't even drunk. we drank till late midnite and i was fine.
then the next day i drank wine with fewer friends and it was still okay.
just now, i went to an unexpected drink event (but it was on beer) and im not drunk now.
im just feeling angry. im not sure with who, either me or my past or the damn present.
i just really can't let go of my past i think. im so stupid. and no one's there to tell me (or anyone i love-maybe coz i didnt tell them-but who will jg? duhhh)
this one boy just holds me back whenever he wants to.
verbally and nonverbally. i so love-hate him !!!
xoxo !
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